Thursday, February 21, 2013

before i met you


my dearest van,

before i met you i had an itchy feeling for something new- a change of pace. the distant idea of starting a family suddenly started to sound appealing. i continued my life as usual. i worked, i traveled, i played, and i thought of you. somehow i knew you were going to be my very own little boy when the time was right.

mother's day rolled around and i had a hunch about you. i went to the store to pick up my first pregnancy test, secretly hoping i could call myself mama. the results were negative. this didn't surprise me, but my reaction did. i cried. it wasn't until that moment i realized how much i really wanted you. little did i know the test results were wrong, and i was your mama already.

before i met you i didn't know a love like this. so happy you're here. thank you for being mine. 

love,
mama 
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15 comments :

  1. kylieFebruary 21, 2013 at 1:32 PM

    oh my gosh i just cried.

    so beautiful. meg, this is for me!

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  2. HaleyFebruary 21, 2013 at 2:18 PM

    Megan oh that sweet letter to Van pulled at my heart strings. And it made me recall an incredibly similar circumstance. We didn't plan on little Brooks when he came (I may have told you that before) so just before I took the pregnancy test I felt such mixed emotions of excitement and honestly a bit of dread because I didn't feel I was ready. And it came out negative my heart broke. I most definitely cried, which was surreal because I felt I lost something I didn't even have to begin with. And then, like you, it was a false negative and when I took another one two weeks later it was positive! Our little men were just anxious to get here I guess. ;)

    And that photo. STUNNING. Goodness a woman's body some some pretty crazy-wonderful things.

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  3. elle.crewsFebruary 21, 2013 at 2:38 PM

    This is too sweet. I love it. And that picture is beautiful. I love the natural beauty pregnant women have. Such a glow!

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  4. The EggFebruary 21, 2013 at 3:15 PM

    officially the hottest preggers mama out there!
    van is a lucky man

    xo the egg out west.

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  5. AndreaFebruary 21, 2013 at 3:26 PM

    The cutest ever.

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  6. CassieFebruary 21, 2013 at 3:52 PM

    Beautiful pic meg. I am fast approaching that point! Being a mama is the best!

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  7. girluntitledFebruary 21, 2013 at 6:28 PM

    so precious! it's so strange what a baby does to you----i'm the biggest sap around!

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  8. ChelseyFebruary 21, 2013 at 8:37 PM

    This was the sweetest little letter. It's amazing the heart's capacity to love someone you barely know but has been such a part of you. There are no words to describe it and no way to prepare yourself for the immense love you feel for baby.

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  9. katrinaFebruary 21, 2013 at 9:47 PM

    that photograph is gorgeous. and this post is so sweet. being a mama is the best.

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  11. Kelsey BangFebruary 21, 2013 at 11:14 PM

    could you be any cuter?! No ! you are perfect and look amazing in this photo! you are adorable!

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  12. UnknownFebruary 22, 2013 at 1:19 AM

    wow so beautiful megs. LOVE this pic, so glad you made this post. what beautiful and sweet words. youre the best mama ever. xo

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  13. charlyFebruary 22, 2013 at 9:56 AM

    Megan!
    i found you guys randomly on instagram a little while back and it's so weird how small the world felt once i realized i knew you three a long time ago at Vallivue high!
    This post is absolutely beautiful. And i also wanted to say you guys are so incredibly talented! (tell your sisters i said so)
    Congratulations on your sweet baby Van. So precious.

    http://vanleuvens.blogspot.com/

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  14. Celeste RubalcavaFebruary 22, 2013 at 11:21 AM

    Such a sweet post! Thanks for sharing.

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  15. MichelleFebruary 25, 2013 at 5:02 PM

    aww this is so so sweet. What a perfect lil letter to Van. And you are lookin beautiful in that picture! love ya! i needa see you soon girrrll

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